And
it’s my birthday. I love to take a big day off for myself in this particular
day to celebrate but I never get the chance as I want. Usually I don’t write in my birth
day but today I thought to pen down
something about my birthday. Today I feel that my birthday is too long. I woke
up late and wasted my whole day in office. It was a rough day and I would like
to say it a shitty day. I struggled a lot to keep myself working in the office
but work humdrum almost killed me and I am lucky that I survived with a smile
in the end because its my birthday. I don’t know why this day gives different
pleasure to me and I want to treat myself for being successful to live till
this day. Every year I want to make my birthday memorable but I don’t know how
to make it a special day. Somebody commented me that I am boring. May be I
sound boring but at least I have to make my birth day a special day to
remember.
So I woke up little late today. I took a hike
to a small hill in the very beginning of the morning. The view from the top was
very pleasurable to my eyes and I sniffed a great sigh of loneliness one more
time. My mind was filled with mixed emotions and all usual stuffs. But this
year I have a very special reason to wait in this particular day. I can
anticipate a gentle birthday wish from somebody. I woke up middle of the night
to check my cell phone whether she has messaged me or not because it’s been a
long since we separated in a way we didn’t like and we didn’t want. All I had
was an empty message box and I slept. Throughout the day I was waiting for her
small birthday message that would please me in a way I never had. I almost have
compelled and trained my mind to forget her but this special day to me gives
anticipation that she might call me or write me. At least we can shorten the
day of communication break. We haven’t had any messages or calls since then.
All my wait went in vein because it’s almost midnight and I have only few
minutes left in my hands as my birthday. I wonder the life of human. We are
slaves of time. Time happens to be so powerful that I never can halt my best
days forever. I never could stop it when I was with her. I never could undo all
my mistakes or rectify it. I wished that time would stop by then when we had
the best days of our life, the best moment together, the best part of my life.
I wish to make it immortal and live it one more time but it never happens
because time is mighty and I can’t defeat it. Just for an example my birthday,
I am wishing not to make this day slip away from my hand but it’s almost the
end of my birthday this year. I have to wait another year for the same day and
for the same feelings to live a birth day.
I
am despair that she forgot my birthday. I got no wishes today. I felt bad and I
don’t deserve that. People say I am forgetful. I forget almost every time but I
remember her birthday. I remember every laughter and every word and every moment
together. I remember that. I couldn’t forget her and I think I can’t.
Now
it is the end of today. Its 12 Am in my watch and my birthday is over. I am no
more a birthday boy now. This very special day has ended and my hope too. I
shall wait another year to live this day one more time and I hope that next
year I won’t have this false anticipation of small HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU message
from her. If time is this mighty, I request it to cure me soon, delete all my
memories about her and make me possible that next year I will not be waiting
somebody for a mere BIRTHDAY WISH.
